Whenever I play a guitar gig at a new venue I get majorly nervous. Once I play I settle down. Tonight is no exception. The most nervous I've ever been

I feel like I'm out on a tightrope just wobbling and about to fall. And I keep reaching for someone to hold on to someone to save me and nobody is ever there so I want to curl into a ball and go to a dark place. It's dark because it's a place of non existence